Em's Day....

Em and our Grape Vines...just look at that button nose...love love love you...


Em lookin' beauuuutiful (I LOVE your face baby!!)...


Em and Court ridin' bike down our driveway...


Em sitting on a rock at our favorite summer place...


Em , Sar and Em's B*F*F Courtney....

Em and her B*F*F Sara G....


I made a day for Sar and her snowman 2 days ago (not a single comment..guys your breakin' her heart) and so I decided it would be a great day to post Em...all of the pics were taken over the warmer months so maybe you can just imagine while you are looking at them that the sun is shining outside your window and the day is warm instead of frigid and snowing...

Thank Heaven for Teenage Boys and 4- Wheel Drive...

All I can say is....I was drivin' down the highway...I put my blinker on WAY before my turn because there were 2 Semi's and a Mini Van directly behind me...the mini van was ridin' my behind like she was tryin to hitch a ride...so I figured I should pump my brake several times to give her another opportunity to SEE that I was turning...still she creeps up my backside...so I stomp on the brake...WAKE UP I AM TURNING!! Still vacant of a brain she continues to drive in MY personal space...I pump the brake several more times PUMP PUMP PUMP still she was oblivious to the world beyond her windshield and there is no turn lane and it is a NO passing zone...and traffic was coming. Needless to say...1 mini van 2 semi's and oncoming traffic forced me to take my turn WAY too fast THANK-YOU-SOOOO-MUCH-Mini-Van-Bitch!! I took the turn and the truck whipped to one side then whipped to the other...I over corrected we spun in a complete circle whipped around again and slide backward into the ditch Tthank God there was no traffic coming down the road or I guarantee the whole thing would have turned out differently. Em,Sar and I all looked at each other when the truck finally stopped...everyone was A-ok so I got out to see the damage..yep pretty S-O-L and stuck tight. I thru the truck into 4 wheel drive and tried to drive out forward then backward...no luck...then a blue car comes out of no where and two teenage boys get out..all wide eyed and ask if we are all right...Yep I said but I can't get out of this ditch...so they pushed and I kicked it down and out it came THANK YOU THANK YOU for teenage boys!! I could have just hugged them forever...but they may have freaked so instead I gave them each a $10(all the cash I had on me or I would have given them WAY more) and told them how awesome they were...they didn't want to take the money so I threw it in their window and ran back to my truck...

And just as an off-hand comment..if I ever see that Mini Van behind me again there will be some SERIOUS PAYBACK!!! And yes I am Boiling with BIG TIME Road Rage!!

Sar's Snow Guy...pretty handsome even without an expression... 

Sar being one with the snow...and sending off beams of sheer happiness... 

Sar making her Snow Guy...I love your face baby!! 

Such Relief....

I had my doctor's appointment this morning...all is well...Thank You God for answering my prayers...Doc said that everything is fine and test came back with good news so YEAH less stress...Thank you to everyone that kept me in their prayers I love you all you guys ROCK!!

Maizy's Current Favorite Song...

...Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me..don't cha... don't cha...don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me...don't cha...don't cha....(sing it like a thong wearin' pop star Maizy!!!)I am positive this song was written for the Maizster...she thinks she is all that and a box of milk bones just look at her!!)

Nail Biter....

Em had a Basketball Game tonight in a neighboring town...all the kids had to ride the bus right after school to the apposing team's school. Kruze and Sar and I drove. We got there a little early so we watched the boys team play first...very interesting especially since our boys team is composed of mostly fourth graders...most of which are incredibly height challenged. The other team were 5th and 6th graders and amazons!! Our boys put up a big monstrous fight but it was really all over but the cryin' from the first quarter to the last...so so so sorry guys but its hard to make a shot when there is a Redwood tree standin' in your path!
The girls suited up and threw a few practice shots after the other team wiped the floor with our boys. Soon after the girls game started it was clear that the game was going to be close. I was biting my nails after the second half of the first quarter. It was back and forth their point our point and so on. Very stressful and very exciting especially since their last game was a bust...54 to 8 not our night. Em had a few near misses tonight...the kind where the ball floats and bobs around the net and then just jumps right out just before you start to scream and celebrate... so so so close Em you were sooo robbed!! Courtney made an awesome shot and the fans were screamin'! Its soo funny when Em and Court make a shot they always look soo completely astonished that it happened which makes our fans love to see it happen all the more !! We had a great time and were soo proud of the girls and their win!! 21 to 20 it was awesome! There was a small incident that happened to Sarah and I just before Em and Courts game started...Sar had to do the potty dance and so we went off in search of the nearest bathroom...kind of a maze in that school...we found it down a long hall thru a heavy metal door...of course when we tried to get back thru that nice big heavy door it was locked!! We spent the next 15 minutes walking down hallways and up stairs and around corners and thru more doors and past a deaf blind and mute janitor(honestly he would not see or hear or speak to us) FREAKY...finally we did find a women with all 6 of her senses that agreed to help us find the gymnasium. I think Kruze and Em's Coach thought Sarah and I skipped the country we were gone so long...nope just locked out...story of my life and once again the laughter of men radiates thru the air....its a curse! But my baby WON !!!! WAY TO GO BABY SHAQ!!

Everything Between "Once upon a Time and Happily Ever After"...

Leaving Neverland...
Every person has their own idea of what they think their life should be and what is most important to them. There are movies made and books and songs written by people who have a knack for putting what they want and need into words and making those words sound perfect to the ear and look perfect to the eye. They can so skillfully capture that feeling of having your breath taken away...but those songs and books and movies smartly focus on "the beginning" the first few brief moments when nothing in the world matters but the person you are loosing oxygen over. In the beginning when all you see and know for sure is what that person wants you to see and know. I must have watched a million movies in my lifetime...and every one of them had their part in creating this impossible world in my mind, a world that know real man or relationship could ever measure up to. A world where there is no room for mistakes or insensitive words or actions . Such a fairytale existence my choice of entertainment has left me to crave. I will admit willingly and openly I have been sooo very foolish and naive. Fantasy sells, who would rent a movie with a plot that focuses entirely on an average persons true life...all of the dirty diapers and the housework and the one sided conversations and cleaning the toilet and vaccuming and nights without sex and days without money and the resentments and the forgiving and forgetting, keys locked in trucks and a million other small and large things that just make up a normal life...who wants to pay money to watch your own simple little life in a movie or read it in a book? Not a soul I know. People want to see what they don't see everyday and feel what they don't feel everyday and maybe when your staring at the screen or reading those pages or singing along in your car...maybe all of those emotions and feelings are just far to enormous to have to deal with on a regular basis...a person can not live without air...so maybe searching for that "take my breath away" feeling just isn't the brightest thing. Maybe it is far smarter to hold onto that "I am content and plenty of oxygen is reaching my lungs feeling". I think that if movies and books took it past the "Once upon a time" and just short of the "Happily Ever After" maybe there just wouldn't be so many people pushing and searching and fighting and leaving for something they think they want when all that they will really ever need is standing right in front of them ...

Christmas...Last Year...

Pics from last Christmas...before the giver of heat was installed in the Livingroom...(Oh how I do so love the woodstove)....

My Cup Runneth Over....

There honestly are no words to describe how I feel..Yesterday I had my surgery...I was nervous about going in under the knife and what the results would be..but mostly I was sooo scared that I wouldn't wake up after it was all over. Virgin to the "General"...both of my c-sections were "Locals" so I had never had a general and wasn't sure I liked the idea of having one. (understatement of the century)I think I scared my poor sister half to death when I told her "if I don't wake up...don't let anyone pull the plug...I will still be swimming so don't give up on me..." She started to cry and told me if I didn't stop talking like that she was going to "kick my ass" YEP thats our family ..we tend to resort to violence to show how very much we care!! God I love her!! (Love ya like crazy cakes sis!!)
The surgery was quick and painless (1 hour in surgery 1 hour in post op recovery and 30 minutes in general recovery) I don't remember a thing except..."I am giving you a little shot to calm your nerves and take the edge off..." and then "wake up ...wake up ...wake up..its all over and everything went great..." Me: "you already started?" "Started and finished now close your eyes and rest"
Waiting on the Biopsy is a bit scary but the doctor said he is 99% sure that it will be Benign...I am shootin' for a 100% and praying like a Monk that it will be.But all of this is not so moving...the best part of everything is that yesterday I was showered with emotions and I felt like I could turn into a leaky faucet at any second...I love my family and friends...the last three days have shown me (again and always) how very special and amazing they all are.I have never felt so warm and safe in all my life.Kruze and my Mom and Scott and my Sister just swept in and took care of everything.My babies made me great big posters telling me how much they love me and to get better soon,my nephews gave me great big wonderful hugs (Auntie loves you both so much!!) and my friends and my Grandma called one after another all during the day to see how I was and if everything was ok. Such an awesome bunch of people. I could just burst!! I love you all! You are my heart....

Oh Christmas Tree...Oh Christmas Tree...

Before the tree...
After the tree...
A close-up....
Sunday it was a yucky rainy day sloppy and muddy...but we decided we were going to trugde thru the rain and the mud and find our tree. We drove to our favorite Christmas tree farm and grabbed a little orange saw from the guy that owns the farm and we all set out in search of the perfect tree. It wasn't long (about 5 whole minutes) and we spotted it...standing all gorgeous and perfect in the woods...beautiful blue green medium length needles...a twin sister to the tree we had last year. Kruze pinched off a needle and held it to his nose...Yep...Concolor Pine...it is like nothing you have ever experienced...a perfect blend of pine and citrus and pear...it literally smells like all of these things...and last year our whole house smelled soooo awesome that we were determined to get another tree just like last Christmas. We were so happy to see one left...and about three more just like it. Hopefully no one will walk past them this year and realize what smells so wonderful...I want those trees!! Kruze talked to the farmer about buying some of the trees from him in the spring to plant around our yard, so hopefully we won't forget come spring...I would strongly recommend that anyone owning a little property plant some of these trees (Concolor Pine),in fact as many as possible they are that spectacular. Beautiful and aromatic...

Carrie....

Hi Girl!! Miss you! Wish we were still neighbors...but don't ya just love the country life? (I can't wait to see your new house! I bet it is sooo beautiful) Thanks for checkin' out my blog (at least I think its you...I know it wouldn't be that woman with the escaping baby that used to crawl out in traffic every other day...that woman hates me...never mind that I rescued her child from certain death by Semi truck on a million occasions). Its you ...right? ;o) Hope to see you and Chris real soon...maybe supper and cards ? We'll get the gang together...what do ya think? Miss you tons...