Where I Am...

At first, in the very beginning I thought about changing my Blog name, "Down the Dirt Road" after all I told myself, is not where I live anymore. I tried to come up with something kwirky and interesting something that would grab people by the eyeball and squeeze tight but nothing seemed to fit and then after wracking my brain for weeks I had a long talk with a friend of mine. We were talking about the things that have happened this year and how much my life has changed, I tried to explain how its a little hard to find myself in all of this I look around me at my apartment and at this small town and its very hard not to feel like I have stepped backwards just the slightest bit. My friend asked me if I really feel like I have stepped backwards, Are you sure thats what you've done? Can you really not see your self can you not find you in all of this? Do you still love the sound of the river? The color of the tree's in the fall? Are your children still the most important thing to you ? Do you still love to lay on a blanket under a tree and read a book? Do you still cry at sad movies and laugh at your own stupid jokes? Do you still love baby toes and the color red and the smell of dirt? Thats who you are thats where you are and when I think of you I still see fields of corn and miles of trees and front porch swings and rocking chairs, I still see country and long dirt roads.

I guess sometimes you just need someone to show you where you are , to take you by the hand and walk you straight to where you "live".